Last night I could write 2 pages of my long story. So happy. Hana woke me up at 1.30. She got her diaper wet. After cleaning her up, I took my laptop and tried to write because I was not sleepy--ok, just a little bit, but I remembered my promise to myself to write, write and write.
Well, the BIJI BOLA was there on the desktop. I tried my best not to look at it. Almost touched it though. But again, I remembered my promise. Then I wrote again.
Why I am so happy? Beacuse these days, I don't have the time and energy to write much, 2 pages are even more than great.
So, thanks to dearest babyhana for waking me up in the middle of the night...could you please do it again tonight? =D

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Well...well...well...
I have some stories written earlier...and know what? None of them has en end. Very poor me. I have difficulties to continue any stories. I got stuck and I don't like it. Especially when a game called BIJI BOLA makes me play and play and play again! Come on, Nad!
I had settled a target that the long story should be finished my mid year. Can I? Hope so.
Lazy? Maybe I am. No spirit? Could be? What to do? I don't know.
All I know, the last 2 night I only finished 2 pages. Enough? No! It was week end! I should have done better than just 2 pages...
Well, ok, I wrote a very short story to publish in my blog but not satisfying either.
Let's just hope that the next week end will be better...I get my writing spirit and ideas back!
Amin...

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This is life. Life is full of problem. All we need in this life is strength.

Last week was kind of a very tough moment in my life. I was trapped in so many uneasy situations. There was no way to escape. Dealing with it was all I could do. In all aspects of life, I got myself haunted by so many difficulties that I could not afford to handle.

There was no solution. All I could do was just waiting until all the problems were solved by the rolling of time. Not that I did not want to clear away those problem out of my life but the cause was sort of an external one. It should have been easier if the problem came from myself, I just had to do something with me. But it was all external. Every time I thought I had to the point that I could not handle it, I prayed, dzikir. Dzikir really gave me strength. Dzikir was so powerful.

This week things are calmer. Not that all those problems were solved but at least, one by one, they are not as complicated as before. My head is not as full as before. I can think without having to get a headache. I can see things a little bit more clearly now.

This is life. Life is up side down. Just be prepared. Both sides need strength anyway.

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Fiuh!
When I was single, life was kinda complicated and I thought that being 'double' would be different.
It is! So different, different complication, should I say.
Actually, it's about managing my household. Specifically, the maid! Well, they really give me headaches.
Since I had my baby, last June, the one staying with me now is the 3rd maid I have ever had. The first one was a nice-well-shaped-body girl of 22 years old. She was nice, kinda slow, but well managed (that's what I liked about her). Only one thing, bad odor, yuck. But at the end she could manage it. And too bad, by that time, she decided to find another job, right after Idul Fitri. The second one was also nice at the beginning, a very good cleaner, good with baby, spoke a little bit english. But at the end, she messed it up. She was not focused, she went out a lot with the boyfriend. All she did was mistake. So, we agreed that it would be better for her to find another job.
Yesterday, I got a new one. She just came to Jakarta for the first time to work. She really looked like a kid. While holding my 9 kg babyhana, she seemed even smaller. But I think it would be better with her (I hope so too) bcoz she really doesn't know anything about Jakarta and she's calm. Btw, the 2nd one really talked a lot!
So, here I am. So many things to decide in order to manage this household. Not complaining. I know it's part of the marriage life besides all the happiness I get from my husband and little babyhana. I just hope I'll always be able to handle it. It's called supermom, superwoman or whatever I don't care. All I know that, I have to be strong and gain all the strength on earth, grab it to my heart and let the blood spread the energy to all over my body and mind so I would always be there for the whole family.

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