Confidence is like religiousity. Sometimes it's up and sometimes down. Mine is up and down, hopefully not up-side-down. I am about to do a big "..." in my life. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I did one big "..." before and I failed. I don't know about now. Will I be better? Will I be able to face it? Will I be able to make it?
Everybody says I will, so now, here I am, trying to convince my self. I think it's just the trauma (the one I mentioned earlier in this blog), nothing else but the silly trauma.

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I have never realized how traumatized I am until today. That certain moment in my life was the cause. I thought it was only about being in the comfort zone, apparently it was also about the trauma.
I know that I should have taken it easily but I can't. And I wish I could.
Now I just have to wait for the result. Que sera sera...

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Well...well...well...
I took a look at some of the cute blogs today and somehow, I was kind of inspired to redesign my blog. I tried to use FrontPage. Not easy...since to be honest I have no idea about HTML/CSS. So just now I told my dearest hubby to let me take a course or something to be able to design my own site. But according to him it's something that we can learn by doing. What a challenge!
He said he would provide me with some other cool software for webdesign. Wow! I would love it. Ok, I know that there are some ready-to-use templates (I found them in some websites) but I think I would be happier to redesign my own site by my self no matter how it will look like.
I remember the old days when I was still studying, DO IT YOURSELF was my motto. I tried not to cheat--well, one or two or three times I had to cheat since the whole class did it and if I didn't it would be like betraying your dearest friends ;D--and I was satisfied with the result.
Now, let's see what I can do with my sites and how long it will take to rebuild them.

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These days, I get a bad headache everytime I try to find an interesting tv show to enjoy after the tiring working hours I spend at the office since the result always ends to BIG ZERO! I push the + button on the channel search again and again with a big hope to find something to watch with pleasure yet all I find is always bad soap opera and silly programs.
I remember my young days (not that I am old now but just refer to another me in the past)when I had some tv shows to long for. Almost everyday, although in different hours. They were Friends, Alf, Sex & the City, Family Ties, Gilmore Girls, Growing Pains, Dawson's Creek, Ally Mcbeal, and many more. Now I only can wait for Oprah's Show and it's also boring (the one I saw in an Indonesian Channel) since I've seen it before in Cable (when there was a TV in our office pantry room, Boss! Please a TV in the pantry!).
Oh...I miss a good and enjoyable TV show. I was in love with TV. Should I just break up with it now?

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